Jean's ; Randomness

Europe 2011 Part 1

2012-01-06T02:10:00.011+08:00

Arc de TriompheEiffel TowerView from Eiffel Tower, 3pm
View from Eiffel Tower 3.30pmChapel Bridge, Lucerne Switzerland
Rheinfall, Schaffhausen (Northern Switzerland)Der Kolner Dom, Cologne Germany

Malt Wine (it's warm!) from Christmas Market

In the moment..

2012-01-06T01:53:00.014+08:00

cosy in the kitchen

rain drops on the window

waking up in the desert

red scarf. ivory skin

stripe. like it's yesterday

shush. red navy yellow mellow

pink and loud

downtown chic

porcelain complexion

redder bolder bad-er

messy knot

earthy

Craving

2011-11-08T19:02:00.002+08:00

I lost my phones, yes both of them last month. Got a new phone but it doesn't seem to be equipped enough to do as much as I like it to be.

Hence, now I've my eye on this oneHTC Incredible S. Wait till I've found the courage to part with my money just to bring this baby home.

Pray that I shall find my motivation.

I wanna lose weight!!!

2011-08-19T22:40:00.012+08:00

pink blazer. fluffy puppy hair

quirky looking angle - i heart the light

stockholm apartment kitchen

ideal & healthy breakfast

green apple.mustard cardigan

green snakeprint leggings!

flower girl, love how the soft light hits her face

leighton

TVD on Rolling Stone, Ian looks so..mesmerizing

Karen Gillian

110811

2011-08-11T22:37:00.001+08:00

I'm not happy.
I have to learn to be thankful
Tried to psycho myself to be happy.
But still,
negativity prevails

ck's farewell @ overtime

2011-08-02T22:16:00.002+08:00

More farewells coming.
Oh yes, we are almost drunk
from left - ols, yours truly,sim,sabrina,ck,susim

100711

2011-07-10T23:02:00.005+08:00

很多事情不是谁说了就算
即使伤心结果还是自己担
多少次失望表示着多少次期盼
事实证明幸福很难

我们之间不是谁说了就算
拉扯的爱徒增结局的难堪
一百次相爱只要有一次的绚烂
下一次会更勇敢

当冬夜渐暖当大海也不再那么蓝
当月色的纯白变得阴暗
那只是代表快乐不再那么简单
当冬夜渐暖当夏夜的树上不再有蝉
当回忆老去的痕迹斑斑
那只是因为悲伤从来都不会有答案

我们之间不是谁说了就算
拉扯的爱徒增结局的难堪
一百次相爱只要有一次的绚烂
下一次会更勇敢

当冬夜渐暖当大海也不再那么蓝
当月色的纯白变得阴暗
那只是代表快乐不再那么简单
当冬夜渐暖当夏夜的树上不再有蝉
当回忆老去的痕迹斑斑
那只是因为悲伤从来都不会有答案

当冬夜渐暖当青春也都烟消云散
当美丽的故事都有遗憾
那只是习惯把爱当作喜欢
重要的是我们如何爱过那一段

27062011

2011-06-27T22:13:00.007+08:00

It has been a busy month, I feel like I'm constantly buzzing like a bee..
Work
Family
Life
house moving
Friends
...

Although most of the time, life seems like a constant circle
but I yearn for some stability in it.

I do not know whether it's because of the general feature of my thoughts
or was it the stress from work.
Life just suddenly do not seem so beautiful and enjoyable anymore.
Or maybe it's just the fanciness of this working life has subsided so much
it's no longer is giving me the satisfaction that I'm looking for.

I feel like I've fallen into a trap, or a limbo
Like it's going, going and gone.
And yet I'm still here, like I'm not here nor there.

I missed home terribly,
I think it's because subconsciously I don't get to do what I like here.
I do not feel like I'm being rested enough,
I cannot just tell people off that I would like this or that.

There's just so many dissatisfaction,
so many uncertainties,
so many crossroads.

Yet all I can think about,
is that all roads does not lead to Rome,
but to destruction.
Or worst still, to be continuing this.

Sometimes it feels like I'm not thinking straight,
like I'm not being myself.
I always asked "what would my oldself do?"
I'd like to have her back one day,
I'm in love with the old her, not this one.

People say version 2.0 is always better.
But this feels vulnerable, idiotic and mismanaged.
Like a damaged good.

12052011

2011-05-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

I think it has been way overdue.
I almost do not recognize myself anymore.
Now, if you all will excuse me.
I'm heading out to look for myself.

Hopefully,
You'll still be around when I'm back.

Still listening to : Mad World by Gary Jules

28042011

2011-04-28T22:31:00.002+08:00

I'm heartbroken.
It's eating me slowly inside.
Don't ask, I can't talk about it.

My tears are dried up.
So am i.

Pretty please?

2011-04-10T13:46:00.014+08:00

16032011

2011-03-16T22:34:00.002+08:00

I do think that when natural disaster strike, there's no place to run. And when disaster strikes, and you're still commenting on your facebook about something else, busy posting new pictures of the food you took, how busy you are. Seriously, there must be something wrong with you.

I'm deeply sadden by the fact that so many parts of our world are hit by natural disasters. It's the only type of incident that no matter how great human are at predicting and taking precaution measures, we can never run away from it.

The earthquake and tsunami, followed by the nuclear leak in Japan should have taught mankind a great lesson. The Japs are really great at facing crisis time, they are calm, considerate and never cause more pain then it has already been. If only this has happen at any other country, no one could warrant for this circumstance. And take it to them, quake at 9.0 and yet no major collapse of buildings.

I feel like revelation is approaching, the ground is shaking. And shaking. It's like it's going to be over before we knew it.

Shopaholic Mania 2011

2011-03-16T22:27:00.010+08:00

On sale - seesawplayground

Egg Plant top

Love the luscious color -bunch of wildflower

Christopher Kane inspired -un-masqued

H&M - angelaglory

Teardrop Extras at the side - cocktails

Color Scheme - whitelabelcloset

Chinese New Year

2011-02-06T22:54:00.003+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year peeps! Just came back from Taiping today after staying there for a week, it felt so hard leaving home knowing that, working life hardly comes with a package that includes going back home for more than 3 days.

CNY was uneventful but fulfiling, I spent quality time with the family. And most of my time were either sleeping, or laze-ing on the couch.

Met up with a few friends over the week, everyone seems to have mature in different ways. And it certainly seems like those differences were irreconcilable and rightly so.

Works resume tomorrow, which is another bore. Tones of works await and countless meetings to schedule.

Consolation is, the family is coming down again for the coming weekend again to visit. Yeay me!
Bad news is, will have to cancel the meet-up with ex-coursemate on Saturday.

没有人会对你的快乐负责，不久你便会知道，快乐得你自己寻找。

做人要含蓄点，得过且过，不必斤斤计较，水清无鱼，人清无徒，谁又不跟谁一辈子，一些事放在心中算了

2010-12-19T21:27:00.003+08:00

24hour/day is just not enough to begin with. Without me even realising it, 2 months already flew by. Working life, I guess suites me quite well. At least, I'm not haggered, or drowning. I'm one of the few lucky ones, who happens to love her job.

Lets just start the updates from beginning, Joshua got a job in MAA in Oct, introduced me to it. I went for the interview, thinking whole-heartedly that I wouldn't get the job merely cause the interviewers were giving me a really hard time during the meeting. 4 interviewers vs Me. I wasn't shaking, merely froze. Luckily, I managed to maintain my "poise" and continue smiling. Needless to say, they called me back a week later to offer me the job. To date, I'm sitting behind Joshua in the office, became colleague with Sabrina. And have a boss who treats me like a toddler, that said. Needed to be baby-sit around the clock.

Speaking of the job, I work in Claims Department. To be more precise, Third Party Bodily Injury, Direct Settlement Unit. I liaise with third party solicitor(those representing clients who was injured in a motor vehicle accident, caused by our insured) to negotiate for a settlement, and dispose of the claim. It was a challenging job, many balls to juggle at once. And, lots to learn too.

I went for outstation trip on my second week of work, to Sungai Petani. Knowing nothing, merely following to observe =) It was exhausting, but rewarding. I also went to Malacca last week, came back sick. See, told u it was exhausting and demanding. But, with a job like this..time flies.

I've also scouted out a place to stay now, not a Subang resident anymore. I missed that place though, I guess it really hits home when you've called somewhere home for 5 years. However, I also quite like my place now. It's a new place, new kinda lifestyle. However, I'm still looking out for suitable furniture to place in my new "home". Myvi also got a parking place here, so I can cross off one less thing to worry from my list.

Thinking of getting a new laptop, but I needed to talk to Justin 1st to get his opinion. I liked the pretty ones from Vaio, but the boyf don't quite see the same. But my lappy is getting old, and laggy already. Of course, harddisk problem has been a problem even since time immemorial.. I also worry that this might crashed anytime soon because being a lappy. I'm already damn proud cause it lasted 6 years without any problem =)

With all this happening, new place, new job, new lappy..also thinking of getting a new phone.. makes me think that I'm really a grown up now and will have to take full responsibility of what I've done and not being so dependent. People around will probably slowly making less and less allowances for my screw ups anymore. Good sign i guess!

More soon, after I came back from Haerbin, China next year!
Till then, Merry Christmas and God bless!

jean
-to freeze off soon-

Inspiration Pic - Dec 2010

2010-12-19T21:12:00.011+08:00

Waltz

2010-10-24T02:51:00.006+08:00

is love overrated?

2010-10-21T10:16:00.002+08:00

在　哪裡記載　第一個桃花賊　
誰在　哪裡典賣　第一支紫玉釵
我在　這裡見怪更怪　
見過電影裡面人家的海　更想去看海
唱過人家的愛　更想找愛

你哭起來我笑起來　都為了　愛愛愛
有一天翻開辭海找不到愛　
花不開　樹不擺　還是更暢快
愛　還是會期待　
還是覺得孤單太失敗　
我愛故我在

找到愛　幸福的人　肯不肯躲起來　
正在　寂寞的人　能不能站起來
我在　這裡陪你無奈　
讀過小說裡面人家等待　更習慣等待
唱過人家的愛　更想找愛

你喊出來　我靜下來　都為了　愛愛愛
有一天翻開辭海找不到愛　
花不開　樹不擺　還是更暢快
愛　還是會期待　
還是覺得孤單太失敗　
我愛故我在

揮不出滿天滿地的塵埃　
買不起滿街口袋的品牌
你悶起來　我傻起來　可以愛
會不會整個時代只有一個告白　
誰不愛過不存在

不明不白　不分好歹　都為了　愛愛愛
有一天翻開辭海找不到愛　
花不開　樹不擺　還是更暢快
愛　還是會期待　
還是覺得孤單太失敗　
我愛故我在

I'm just saying

2010-10-13T16:01:00.002+08:00

love
is where you wrap up your head, heart and other organs
in a package, tie it with a ribbon and
hand it to someone for safekeeping.

Sometimes,
when you're really unfortunate.
The package got return to sender and
you feel like everything is messed up
going back to the wrong places,
for the wrong reasons.

It's ironic
When you get it back, somehow it hurts
way more than when you're giving it away.

Dear Life

2010-09-21T00:28:00.002+08:00

I'm starting to think I don't have a life, after countless attempts of people trying to probe at me asking what I'm doing here, what am I doing now. I think I'm officially out of answer for them. I don't even masked any attempts of answering those questions politely, I just agree with whatever they're saying or suggesting and then they'll quietly go away and gossip something up. Small town life, that's it.

Last week was a fulfilling week though, my best gal pal and boyf was in town. Needless to say, I'm a happy girl! I also went up to Penang for a short vacation as well, who knows lying on the sun chair on a breezy afternoon watching clouds can be so therapeutic =)

Anyhow, I'm still waiting for some replies for the interviews I went couple weeks ago, my dad seems to be pretty confident that the job is mine for the taking. As for myself, couldn't say so. And if God bless that this job is mine, then I'll have a lot on my plate to settle before it starts. Finding a place, moving, settling everything here. I've a to-do list so long cause I've been putting everything to be done to this week cause last week was my happy week and there's so many people in town. I don't wanna risk running around in town and bumping into another human being which I'm not keen to see.

The other friend of mine was in town as well for a brief moment, we met up and had a short chat over coffee. She couldn't stop probing and showing off her life. Sometimes I got a bit bored during the conversation I just switch off my mind. Well, just sometimes. Not about to start another meaningless argument with her over something worthless. This relationship with this particular friend was defined as 落水狗朋友, meaning a friend that'd only turn to you when she's at the lowest point of her life. Not such a glorify term, ain't it? However, we're just trying to be there for her, I guess. By my definition, her life is pretty much screwed up. And as that term wasn't bad enough, apparently me and her were having a relationship called the Porcupine effect. LMAO.

Ok, done with all the ranting. I guess I'll just go back to my novel. Pleasantly blissful life :P
Eat, shit, sleep, online, movie, novel et cetera. And the circle repeats itself.

August 2010

2010-08-28T21:36:00.006+08:00

First time ever buying color con online.
Green one, 16mm, way too big for my eyes

Dots high waisted shorts from Girlabouttown

Pastel scallop top from Kiss&Tell

Handmade bookmark from allkinds of everything RM18

Shrek Forever After OPI Mini set.

Mulberry Alexa - Inspired =(

2010-08-16T00:51:00.003+08:00

I'm in love with this bag, but dunno whether I should get them or not.

Obviously I'd love to have the real thing, but it's £695
So yea, guess I'll have to settle for the inspired thing.

Yay or nay?
Grey, white or the brown?

140810

2010-08-14T21:19:00.001+08:00

Just came back from Kampar yesterday, i swear i'm never gonna take the train again.
It's bumpy, packed, and full of rude people. Never will I thought going around with friends for a day trip is gonna be so tiring. Perhaps we ate too much, laugh too much, talk too much!
Well, that's basically what you'll get when you put 4 very talkative law graduates together. There's practically no pause in between conversation, once a new topic pops up, there'll hardly be any need to start a conversation cause we're on a roll.

Thanks again to Ashley and her mom for this wonderful hospitality. Her mom is seriously so friendly and cute! =)

I'm so tired now i think i'm gonna nap somemore.

Backdated Japan Trip!

2010-08-07T16:24:00.003+08:00

In our Yukata, for dinner at some hotel near Mt.Fuji
Can also see the Mt.Fuji from the backyard of the hotel, so magnificent

wandering the streets of Ginza. And having doroyaki at the original shop in Doraemon!
Long walk and long queue there :P

Camwhore on the way back to Tokyo in the bullet train.

Taking picture with some random penguin character.
So cute la that fella, anyway i got terrible sunburn from Universal Studio Kansai.
The maxi dress I wore was comfy but it also gave me a V shape sunburn =(

Family pic at Mt.Fuji =)

Summer Pleasure

2010-08-04T23:35:00.002+08:00

Every year during my 3 months summer break I indulge myself with more series

First come Bones, then House.
This year, I'm infatuated with The Vampire Diaries.

Despite their consistent positive reviews,
I'm still a firm believer that this is going to be yet another Twilight-que chick flick.
Little did I know I'll be so crazy over it. It's seriously good!
Double-seriously!!

I finished the entire season of 22 episodes within 2 days, stayed up until 4 in the morning just to finish it. And have been deleting it along the way just to free up some space for my lappie.

Now, I'm downloading back every episode of it just so I can keep them for repeat watching ;p
The actor/actresses are all super hot o_O
Especially the character played by Ian Somerhalder aka Damon Salvatore in the series. Another Chuck Bass like layered character, with the undeniable bad-boy charm *blush*

I used to think Vampire is so overrated. With moonlight, true blood..I don't think there's gonna be another Vampire series that I'll follow religiously, that was..before The Vampire Diaries =) *there must be a reason why tvfanatic gave them a A+ rating*

Well, nuff said. Let's share some pictures now

Exquisite

2010-07-26T00:47:00.008+08:00

easy breezy angelic

cupcake and cashmere. flowy blue frock
can can bowler hat

minkpink.vintage.dots

wind in the hair.slender.sunset

emmy rossum with exquisite feature

vintage dress

mint vintage telephone

tiny rose buds

Aftermath

2010-07-24T20:34:00.003+08:00

Exam is over. Rest assured, I'm not dead, nor in pieces. I just merely, quit! Never would in a million years that I pegged myself as a quitter. However, in this exceptional circumstance, I think I just pull the plug cause I couldn't take it anymore. It's just too much to handle.

The exam stress for this time around built up pretty early. Prolly around a little more than a month before exam even begin. I think I'm secretly freaking out cause I've been working full-time until March and didn't stop completely until May. Plus there's this complication with the transcript and the application. In fact, my application wasn't certain until 3 weeks before exam. All that certainly has a role to play in inducing all that craziness.

I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep. I tried my best not to let it affect my life, trying not to let it get the best of me. Trying to show everyone I love that I could do it, they shouldn't worry. However, what I did was keeping everything inside of me, trying to compress it so it doesn't explode. I was holding everything in so much so that I just merely numb. Numb at the exam pressure, numb when I was studying, numb when clock is ticking so slowly yet so scary. Now I know, I was in a condition that was referred as limbo. It was even like this on the exam morning, I knew I should be freaking terribly yet I just felt numb. I kept mumbling that I was scared beyond my head but in fact it was so numb I couldn't feel anything.

Finally I knew something was terribly wrong when I went home, couldn't keep any food down but slept for 5 hours. Woke up to a glorious dinner yet has no appetite. The supposedly easy next paper looks like French to me. Nothing make sense, nothing freaking stick! I was so scared, I shivered in my sleep. That was then I knew this is too much, way beyond that I could take it anymore. I just Quit! Make my decision then and there. It was always in there somewhere but I couldn't just quit even before I try.. but now I did, it's just, I was caught off-guard, I wasn't well prepared enough.

I'm now back in my hometown, still shopping like crazy. Have no idea what to do with my life yet, but I'm in no rush to find out what I want to do yet. I've been planning all my life so meticulously what to do, when to do. Now I just want to enjoy the time when no pressure is on my shoulder and yet millions of opportunities just opens up. I want to take my own sweet time doing things I like, while figuring out what I'd like to do =)

So, yea..I'm back!

Pastel is so Spring!

2010-07-09T12:29:00.003+08:00

I've 72 hours to my 1st paper and this is what i'm doing. The excessive hormone and stress is making me crazy. Let hope they do not reflect on my forehead or tummy instead.

Well..damage on the wallet maybe?

Up & Away China Glaze Collection

Orly Sweet CollectionOrly Lemonade *pic credited to VampyVarnish Essie Mint Candy Apple pic credited to nailgalore

Orly Lollipop

Orly Gumdrop

China Glaza re-freshmint *out of stock* =(

China Glaze Peachy Keen

China Glaza Light as Air

tell me, how do you not feel intrigued?
I want them on my nails, ASAP!

p/s: ok, not asap, after exam la!
they can be my guilty pleasure after exam

040709

2010-07-04T01:01:00.001+08:00

I'm secretly freaking out

I'm trying my best not to let it get the best of me.

Time is running out

I'm still in a numb state of mind.

Somebody stop the time bomb from ticking,

before it blows up in front of me!!!

260610

2010-06-26T19:15:00.003+08:00

Hi all, I've been MIA quite a bit lately. Exam stress are piling up and that seems to be the only thing I'm obsessed with. It quite overwhelming considering that it gives me panic attack and insomnia since like probably a month back. Now I'm taking a step back and on the zen mode of taking the part where perhaps if I've give it a try and do what I could and just let God take charge of the rest.

Well, to a more cheerful mood. I've been crazy with shopping lately *duh, what's new* I just discovered that there's so many alternative besides shopping online. Like the Asian Avenue place at Sunway Pyramid, it's near and the price is nearly as competitive as Online. Besides, Cotton On is probably a good haul too but somehow I just never as managed to buy anything from them. Real pictures f0r the items I bought, soon! They're just too pretty not to be shared.

Recently, I'm also being so obsessed with those contest that bring in loads of prizes and sample!The return has been pretty good considering I just started somewhere around March/April. Excerpt of what I've received so far *lalala*

Fresh look Illuminate Contact Lenses
Loreal Homme Hydra Energetic Fatigue Booster
Loreal Icy Shine Control Moisturiser
Biotherm Cellulite
Rimmel Matte Foundation
Freshkon Contact
Beautytalk products
Haba Labo trial pack

I'll review each and every one of them once I've time =)

Do try out those online trial spree/magazine cut-out contest..you never know when you might get lucky.

Website to look out for :-
Only Beauty - register with this website and apply for sample daily. Sample will be sent *delivery charge absorb by OB* if you're picked. I've been picked 3 times already! =)
Tongue in Chic - Malaysian very own fashion site, review up and coming trends, where to hang out etc etc. Also gives out pretty generous prizes with their contest. Won movie tickets and real size skincare/cosmetic already!
Plus Size Kitten - did quite a complete coverage on warehouse sales, discounts, freebies and of course online contest :P Very very convenient place to get updated

Of course, remember to buy me a drink if you've won anything, aite?

XOXO, Jean

April May June

2010-06-26T18:49:00.010+08:00

Hauls from L'oreal Luxury Warehouse sale!

Scallop Short bought yesterday *pic credited to DailyBoutique*

Are in love with this colour lately
Chiffon Dress *pic credited tictactoe*

Purple Satchel bought on sale from Alice Wonders
Pink Grey flats from Teetoo, Sunway Pyramid.
And this is Mewling =)

Peterpan Mint Blouse from An Old Flame
Vikee said it looked like Mint Chocolate Ice Cream.
I think she might be having craving for dessert then

Boat Neck Romper from Poplook
Mie said it look like Samantha Jones' :P

Alice in Wonderland tights, absolutely delicious!!!

Vintage Victorian Blouse.
it annoys me so much cause the button keeps popping open =(

130510

2010-05-13T19:15:00.003+08:00

人生如戏，戏如人生。

每当我觉得很沮丧时，我都会这么样告诉自己。
很多时候看不开，很多时候很执著
从来没想过退一步海阔天空
只是觉得。。人生如戏
大家都是戏子

分别在于，
你是个老戏骨
或是个青涩的演员。

演完了这一幕，
下台前一鞠躬，
又得赶下一场，
一个人真真正正的下台
只有在回到天家之后

当你找到你生命中的另一半
彼此都在演活着一个角色
在时间的怂恿下，
慢慢的学会信任
慢慢的卸下一层层的面具
好像演变脸一般。
当信任越来越多，
面具就会慢慢的不见，
到只剩下最原装的自己。

有些人却在这一场戏里，
演得太逼真了。
到最后失去自己。。

有些人在同一个时间
要扮演很多的角色
而觉得不知所措

我不想演任何角色
我只想演自己
无奈很多时候
身不由己

Spring!

2010-05-02T22:07:00.010+08:00

Love the freckles on her pale skin

and the stars on her chiffon dress

also her Chanel pumps

jumpsuit,major crush!

miumiu inspired pony dress

grassy.gladiator.flowy white dress

jumping shots in creamy dress?

Shoe Porn

2010-04-07T15:32:00.003+08:00

pic credited to yuniqueparadise
oh my..i literally went to shoe heaven and came back!
I was holding my breath when i saw this one.
So pretty!!
however, Rm165 for this, online pricing is a bit steep, right?

Would this be a more practical version?
but i like the pink/grey combination!!

lace peep toe sling back Rm79
pic credited to orangelittle

On the month of..April

2010-04-07T13:23:00.004+08:00

*this post is more like for future self ref, ignore me if u've to*
Today is my working day, hence I have to sleep earlier last night, or at least attempted too. While the sleeping bug doesn't visit me untill quite some time later, my tiny little brain starting working like adrenalin. I started giving my future some thoughts, shed some lights on it. What did I want to do? How is it going to be? Can i perhaps, virtualise it now?

On career
It'd be great if I can ace my paperSss and get my ass into a big bad ass firm, work my way up from there. I actually still think divorce/family matters interest me alot. However, grade shows that I'm doing better in the corporate side. Hopefully can make big buck on the way, have a condo worth like half a million. But however do not want to make partner, then i'll have to worry about profit and loss. Continue doing midnight glam, that's my passion. It gives me great pleasure on doing work on that =)
On family
my siblings to grow into somewhat elegant and classy grown-up while doing subject/stuffs/work that they really like. While daddy can always stay half a month in the city and half a month back home. Keep things interesting.
On marriage
I want it to be a garden wedding, lots of green and white. Small and elegant. Invite like 200people to witness the ceremony..in a garden. I wanna wear something long and pretty, but still me. I don't want my make up and hair to be done in a way where I don't see myself anymore. A braid too, if my hair is long enough.
Wedding photos shouldn't be too formal, i hope they get to capture us when we're just talking, laughing..and smiling into each other eyes. I secretly also hoped that i get to do another photoshoot, but only for private viewing*winks*. In black/white, very sensual..in a sultry,sexy but not slutty kind of good. Like to be able to look at it after 20years and still smile at the chemistry..btw.i've to shed lotsa weight before i'm confident enough to do so though :P
yea.i guess that's just all for now. Perhaps when i'm bored again in soon future. then we'll come back and review this, aite?

饮歌

2010-04-01T12:34:00.000+08:00

曾经攀上的天梯曾经拥抱的身体
曾经在乎一切被突然摧毁
霎那比沙更细
良夜美景没原因出了轨
来让我知一切皆可放低
还是百载未逢的美丽
得到过又促逝也有一种智慧

全年度有几多首歌给天天的播
给你最愉快的消磨
流行是一首窝心的歌突然间说过就过
谁曾是你这一首歌你记不清楚
我看着你离座
真高兴给你爱护过根本你不欠我甚么

曾经拥有的春季曾经走过的谷底
人生是场轻梯忽高也忽低不输气势

谁曾是你这一首歌你记不清楚
我看着你离座
很高兴因你灿烂过高峰过总会有下坡

回忆装满的抽屉时光机里的光辉
人生艳如花卉但限时美丽一览始终无遗
回望昨天剧场深不见底
还是有几幕曾好好发挥
还愿我懂下台的美丽鞠躬了就退位
起码得到敬礼
谁又妄想一曲一世让人忠心到底

想对你说

2010-03-25T00:06:00.002+08:00

我一定是闷了。烦了。太得空了，要不然也不会用华语来写这一片稿。
最近发生了一些事，很忙。忙得难得有空偷一下闲，又会觉得很浪费时间。

上个礼拜回了太平一趟, 去参加舅舅的婚礼. 仪式非常简单, 又不失隆重, 这也是我男朋友这么近距离的和我家人朋友相处.
其实我是很替一对新人开心, 毕竟在一起这么久了, 从一开始不被看好到大家都在催着他们结婚,多么长的一条路啊! 可惜我只回家不到48小时, 风云一过, 我又离开了.

很烦. 我在等着英国寄来的文凭, 我在n次搬家时弄不见了,花了300块补弄一张.
等了三个月,一点消息都没有. 现在英国那边昨天才说寄出, 4月9号报名就截止了, 我很担心, 也很着急,可也不能做些什么. 我很想积极一些, 把没念好的功课都赶上,可是把书翻开才觉得有心无力.也只能很囫囵吞枣的把课文大声念出, 也多少吸收了一些吧!

最近变得很爱哭, 昨天前天.在线上读了一些小说, 哭的稀里哗啦的!
今天无意中发现我堂哥的部落格. 发现一片关于我公公过世的那一段, 又哭得稀里哗啦, 我以为我不会, 毕竟他过世的那一刹那, 我眼泪都留不出来. 也只有在出殡的时候才放声大哭.
现在从他笔下读到这一段, 很多前程往事全涌现. 我和他住了20年, 他和婆婆对我非常的宠爱, 甚至到了溺爱的地步. 婆婆过世时,公公因为不太能接受这事, 时时以泪洗脸, 要不就说起和婆婆恩爱的过往. 所以我认为, 他的逝世搞不好也是一种解脱.
我没哭, 是因为我认为他会在另一个国度过得更开心一些; 我又哭了, 因为我好久没想他们了..

天啊! 写的没文没理的, 太久没用华文来写文章了. 所用的都是一白话, 写不出以前那些文绉绉的词, 难为了华语是多么美丽的语言阿!

英淳
2010年3月25日
凌晨38分

Overhaul 2010

2010-03-02T10:58:00.004+08:00

list is unbleievalbe long because it's a compilation of Jan, Feb and Mac.
I totally forgot to post them for the past 2 months :P

Also eyeingDove necklace from Nad Case

Chiffon Dress from Raspberry

Purchases:

Ponies Dress from DollhouseAvenue
i bought the black one, it's a tad short but nonetheless, love it!!
Got a few compliments from friends while wearing that too

Ombre Maxi and Lace White Dress, AgapeVintage Beige Lace Dress. LadiesMall
funnily, the colour look exactly the same as my skintone,
but very comfy and hide all unsighty bulges..

Vintage Peter Pan Blouse from DaintyDresser
Love it! Absolutely flowy and airy-also thanks Mei for the discount!!

Ribbed Navy Blue Long Cardi from Jaya33 Bazaar!pic credited to AttireAttic
The pic don't even do justice to the colour, it's so pretty in real-life.
Get a few asking where i got it though :P
p/s: it's cheaper in bazaar then online, talk about being affordable!

Vintage Chiffon Blouse thrifted

Lace Navy Blue Dress from Poisonous
wore this during 1st day of CNY, i think i'm in love with navy blue.
this might be the colour of the year, well along with red and grey and purple.

Grey thick knitted cardi from RedOcaso pic credited to TicTacToe
super thick and comfy. Perfect for freeeezing lectures and air-cond room!

Everybody screams!

2010-02-25T10:02:00.001+08:00

"We all looked good on the outside,
but everyone is screwed up inside,
just on totally different level."

New Year's

2010-02-23T09:52:00.002+08:00

"It was a good beginning for New Year's,
and now it's ruined "

Tooth Fairy

2010-02-12T15:25:00.002+08:00

see!! It's ickle and Lardee.. my milk toof.
so super cute and funny and hilarious!
Oh yea, Lardee is the fat one FYI

Introducing, the milk toof...in super annoying baby voice

So super damn pretty awesome cute!!!

I'm still at my work desk. feeling bored and in like
zero mood to work already. Almost all chinese
in the office left for CNY break already.
Can't wait to go back home early morn tomorrow!!

Till then,
Happy Chinese New Year everyone!
May the year of Tiger brings lotsa luck and blessings.

pic credited to My Milk Toof

Orange County

2010-02-08T12:28:00.002+08:00

Awwww..i almost forgot about this series already. They've so much chemistry together..
Remind me to do a re-run of The OC when i'm free, doesn't Marissa and Ryan look so cute?

So sweet yet so heart-breaking.

pic credited to Fuckyeahfamous

People Observation

2010-02-05T11:11:00.002+08:00

I'll be subtle. try to guess, maybe?

I can't help you, not like I can't but I don't want to, helping you today doesn't necessary put you in a better position but definitely made me worse.

How can you be so naive? You think he's the one, but does he thought of you the same way? How many mistakes does it need to take for you to see clearly?

We've a brief encounter, you look so sad, you've that look on your face, like something terrible happened. I hope you feel better now.

If I'm not extremely close with you, I really do not appreciate the physical touch from people. I get that some girls may not mind that, but I certainly do feel awkward.

I think you're just plain pathetic and hypocritical, you're mean and sarcastic and made a complete pathetic fool out of yourself. Sometimes we laugh at you behind your back.

Dear lady at the Lancome counter, if you're new on the job, study up. Or at least make up with friendly attitude. I'll file a complain one day if I remembered your name. I feel uneasy by your service. I doubt that you've tried your best.

You do not know what you want, you do not envision your future, all you did was just gossip and complains. You should know better than just mumbled off everybody's secret. I'm glad I didn't share too much.

Excerpt

2010-01-29T12:00:00.003+08:00

我说过我不闪躲我非要这麽做
讲不听也偏要爱更努力爱让你明白
没有别条路能走你决定要不要陪我
讲不听偏爱看我感觉爱
等你的依赖对你偏爱
痛也很愉快
等你的依赖

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

曾听说过你某夜结婚未曾露笑容
实在不敢知道我是元凶
大概当初我未懂得顾忌
年少率性害惨你
令人受伤滋味难保更可悲
这心地再善良终生怎去向你说对不起

良心有愧原来随便错手可毁了人一世
立志助世人脱贫以为
便伟大到像多麽有为
这种剌蝟连谁曾待我好都可带来伤势
被我害过来接受我跪
是我在制造眼泪居然想救世

New York,
I'm from where dreams are made of,
Theres nothing you can't do,
Now you're in New York,
These streets will make you feel brand new,
The lights will inspire you,
Lets hear it from New York

不远处有一片土站了一颗枯的树
仔细看那树枝的弧度像在哭
枯树前杂遝脚步收集爱情的孤独
为什么眼前荒芜是天下有情人的归宿
那片山谷入口处清楚刻着伤心人的墓

也许我浅薄可不是泡沫
只要为你活过我就不是粉末

我干杯
你随意
这是个残酷的喜剧
我的人生早留在你那里
我却还要故作潇洒地

早知道是这样
像梦一场
我才不会把爱都放在同一个地方
我能原谅
你的荒唐
荒唐的是我没有办法遗忘

220110

2010-01-22T14:20:00.002+08:00

Apparently juggling studies and work is not fun at all.

Time seems to be racing against you. And you get frustrated everytime you got stuck in another boring meeting, or traffic jam, or even just sitting there not being able to concentrate doing your stuff.

This is the 2nd week i'm doing absolutely nothing in the office, i think they temporarily couldn't find anything to occupied me with, i prefer it this way though. I discover the spirit to study in the office already :P I'm bringing a few notes and leave it and the office, so when i've the motivation, i can either study or do some notes. *perks!*

However, despite the pathetic effort of studying. Lately I've been that I put in inadequate time and concentration for my studies. I was a last minute person, perform better under time-constrained. But i think this year course involved too much of brain capacity and memory works, i need to start earlier than usual. Not to mention the sky-high failure rate.

Sometimes i couldn't help but green with envy everytime i realise that my coursemate have proceeded so far with their studies while i'm still fighting very hard to pick up my pace at all. Whenever i reach home after work, all i want to do was just stay in bed in comfy clothing and watching series, Lie to me is my current favourite.
So imagine the fear that struck me after the realisation hit me, i'm worried and scared cause i don't think i'm committed enough in it. I've thought about handing in resignation letter but it wouldn't help cause my contract officially ends early March. I've a month and a half(roughly) of living in guilt of not studying enough and nothing to do at the office. And i think lately all the stress has an out-let of its own, i started to eat more, have better appetite and don't seem to be able to stop myself when it comes to online shopping..

I'm in a mess that is barely pulling through, forgive me if sometimes i seems frustrated and sound annoyed. Not my intention to do so. but i think i'm falling apart..

imissu

2010-01-06T16:16:00.004+08:00

ithinkaboutyou.ithinkaboutus.ithinkaboutyou.ithinkaboutus.ithinkaboutyou.ithinkaboutus.
ithinaboutyou.ithinkaboutus.allthetime

2010.

2010-01-04T11:09:00.003+08:00

8months old Isabelle and me!!

Happy New Year peeps! I just came back from a roller-coaster like weekend back home, too much errands to run, too many people to talk to and too little time to accomplish all that.
Still extremely tired from all the travelling and running around in town. Doesn't help that Manchester United got eliminated from the run of FA Cup last night, terrible!
The lack of sleep has also contributed to the weird phrasing, and walking zombie-ish condition.
Updates will be in bullet point-

watched three movies, The treasure hunter.Sherlock Holmes and G-Force. Check out what my two cents of them above.
Travelled with darling boyf and Fion back home, gossiped about everyone and anyone with Fion. Blek :P
Graduation Day is next week, and i still haven't gotten the outfit to wear yet! And did facial in time for Grad.
Hence, everyone is coming down KL this coming weekend!!
Washed my car yesterday and got bitten by mosquitoes and ants =(
My purchases last week still hasn't arrive, i'm a bit nervous.
Played with Isabelle, she's so so cute now. and heavy. and she drools.
Some pictures from Beijing trip is on fb, i look terrible in winter clothing.

Beijing,wangfujin.-10.justindaddyjillianme.
It's so cold i couldn't even open my eyes.

Crazy Shopping Spree!

2010-01-04T10:50:00.004+08:00

Contemplating whether to buy this or not?
As you know, i'm totally helpless in face with polka!*ahem* the white one.

Leather skinny pants from Rockstarcloset; Polka bubble skirt from Littleblackbook pic credited to MizuCloset; Dualtone Chiffon Dress from WonderGarment; Purple Lycra-ish Handmade Shorts from EmceeCouture; Quilted Beige Cardi from FreshChic pic credited to DustyLace

It has been a crazy year, ain't it?

Christmas with books and movies

2009-12-28T20:53:00.005+08:00

I didn't go back for Christmas this year, mainly because I'm too exhausted with working, studying, traveling etc. Couldn't handle to be stuck in the jam for 4-5 hours to head home, although i did missed everyone at home terribly during Christmas. Anyway, it was holidays well spent, I finally managed to clear up a few more items on the way too long list before we bid farewell to 2009. Here's the showdown for the weekends..

Avatar
watched the 3D version at Midvalley, the movie was great, it portrays a world that's so pure, so clean, so much energy and so free from pollution. And the visual and animation of the entire movie was good, not to mention the colours are so rich, well played. Although I wouldn't recommend anyone to watch it the 3D style, it's terrible beyond words. The specs keep slipping down my nose, well not that the bridge was too low for Asian standard. And it gives splitting headache every couple minutes or so, I've been literally holding the glasses for 2 hours and 40minutes of the movie to make sure I get a good look of what's going on. In addition, the 3D version comes without subtitles, it can be very confusing at times, especially when the Navi speaks English, kinda hard to catch the meaning though...but, well played after all.

Alvin and the Chipmunks
I absolutely adored the 1st one, it was so adorable and cute and funny. The 2nd one however, couldn't be said the same. It wasn't as hilarious as the 1st but the chipmunks are still cute and they've a female chip-pettes called Jeanette!!! Even so, i wouldn't recommend wasting money and time for this on the season where there're so much more good ones to fill the time!

Bodyguards and Assassins
Didn't expect this movie to be good, not really a fan of the director of this movie. However, it took another twist and turns out to be the movie that i enjoyed the most compared to the other two (although Avatar might lose points due to the stupid 3D specs). I adore history, that's why i was worried that it might ruined the taste of it. It was a pleasant surprise after all, the storyline didn't seems to be to hard-sell, the violent and beating is hardcore though, stabbing is terrible but blood splat was bearable. However, what i really like about the movie is that. It provoked a lot of deeper thoughts, from how much sacrifices it took for baby steps in order for revolution to happen, and how brutal was the monarchy in China before this. This was definitely not the worst, but was mind provoking for those who are not familiar with it.

The Time Traveler's Wife
Finally finish up this book yesterday, was crying like a baby approaching the end, when one of the main character died. Although some may say that this book is more towards a chick-lit, i beg to differ. The literature in it, may not be as shallow as some would like to give credit for. The writing is careful, meticulous and in a very delicate way that touches your soul so gently and it sent waves of shivers to the spine. It was a good read, very good one indeed. It has been a really long while since I've read any books that is worth of extreme recommendation.. It's somewhat 600pages long, but very good. I'm planning to re-read it again soon because it's so good. So touching..

For more on my point of view on other books, check it out here

231209

2009-12-23T10:47:00.004+08:00

How i wish today is 24th already instead of 23rd?
Today, is working for 8hours then tutorial for 3more.
Tomorrow i'll have wine and dine with two of my fav person *winks*
and only work until 12.00pm!

Seriously, just came back from Beijing couple days back, it's freeeeezing with a capital F, feel free to elaborate yourself, and yes indeed it was snowing. But it's so freaking cold i feel like my fingers and toes are dropping off. Never have I in my entire life miss the weather in M'sia so much. I secretly promise myself nv to complain about our weather anymore, it's warm and moist here, unlike China, so damn harsh!

Anyway, dowan to sound like an ungrateful b*tch, the view and company was great however. Not to mention, those Olympic stadium just look so magnificent upclose! I'm honoured to be able just to walk near it and touch it, imagine those people who actually went to witness the opening ceremony of Olympic Beijing'08..

I do not have the pic with me right now, will upload it once i got it from Justin =)

btw, i've no idea why. but i'm in a full shopping mode now, someone call 911!

seriously, how long do u need to memorize all this? :P

2009-12-09T09:19:00.003+08:00

青花瓷词:方文山曲:周杰伦

素胚勾勒出青花笔锋浓转淡
瓶身描绘的牡丹一如你初妆
冉冉檀香透过窗心事我了然
宣纸上走笔至此搁一半
釉色渲染仕女图韵味被私藏
而你嫣然的一笑如含苞开放
你的美一缕飘散
去到我去不了的地方
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
炊烟袅袅升起隔江千万里
在瓶底书刻隶仿前朝的飘逸
就当我为遇见你伏笔
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
月色被打捞起晕开了结局
如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽
你眼带笑意

色白花青的锦鲤跃然于碗底
临摹宋体落款时却惦记着你
你隐藏在窑烧里千年的秘密
极细腻犹如绣花针落地
帘外芭蕉惹骤雨门环惹铜绿
而我路过那江南小镇惹了你
在泼墨山水画里
你从墨色深处被隐去
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
炊烟袅袅升起隔江千万里
在瓶底书刻隶仿前朝的飘逸
就当我为遇见你伏笔
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
月色被打捞起晕开了结局
如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽你眼带笑意
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
炊烟袅袅升起隔江千万里
在瓶底书刻隶仿前朝的飘逸
就当我为遇见你伏笔
天青色等烟雨而我在等你
月色被打捞起晕开了结局
如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽你眼带笑意

Spree Month Eleven

2009-12-08T11:56:00.006+08:00

edited : Newly purchased! Which is nicer, blue or black?

kimono bareback dress. dorfbury; black skinny.beetch; chiffon maxi.tagthattag; kimono maxi.purple swirl dress.ladiesfash; lace jumpsuit!, girlsabouttown

Yea, let's do it!

2009-12-08T10:58:00.012+08:00

wasn't really looking forward to this coming trip though. dunno why. but anyhow. just to avoid that i come back less a human more popsicle-like. I need more clothes. so much moore...

Yea, i'm kinda paranoid. so what?! It's really cold though. and cold is not my thing. I was thinking a lil too much I guess, almost wanted to shove my throw into my tiny suitcase :Pbut, i do need my. beanie.mine is purple too, but not as cute as hers.

Speaking of cute. check out how cute is Dakota Fanning ^^Or perhaps, i could get away looking like this? Well, that's not my point. My point is. i need a coat too. and a shawl. more thermal leggings too.Hence, going out with Rene rene later to hunt for thermal leggings.
And thanks to Your Shopping Kaki and SugarScarf,
i won the contest and gotten myself a free shawl to keep myself warm
judging I do not have longer hair to keep my neck from freezing =(

It's huge and ombre blue, absolutely stunning!Anyhow, with all that, i'll probably still freeze while looking like a huge dumpling
instead of looking effortlessly chic like them T_T

Oops, a bit too much, like this?I also found my mom's vintage double breasted coat..
lol!
and more gloves.ear muff.socks.shawl...

011209

2009-12-02T10:04:00.003+08:00

Since when, did we slowly grow apart?
When did we started not to speak of the truth everytime we make a statement?
When did we learn to please our listeners more than ourselves?
How did we become such diplomatic speakers, in order to maintain our friendship?
I don't know you, sometimes I feel like I don't even know myself enough.

Since when, did we give up ourselves to fit into the world?
Are we moulded yet?
Have the revelation begin?
When did our strong-will changed into obedience?
Did we even realise that?

It's just another monday blue..
After a long weekend.

I've no idea, why didn't I return all the calls, the piling up of the to-do list,
the sleeping earlier and earlier every night, the ive-no-strength-to-pick-fight,
and..not even say hi when i bumped into you, I've nothing to say to you.

Are we slowly dying away?
Sometimes i asked myself, am i going to dedicate decades of my life, trapped in this tiny cubicle? Is this what everybody does?
I want to break free from this constant cycle. I want to do something else, more colourful than this in my life..
Is legal firm my future? Is this what i wanted?
Or rather, something else? Some variable?
I do not know.

Burberry

2009-11-18T10:47:00.001+08:00

pix credited to The Sartorialist
This has officially made me wanna save up and
get a Burberry trench!

Mie's

2009-11-17T11:39:00.016+08:00

Long overdue post from one of my bestie's Bday! Be prepared for crazy pix from all night!

Venue : Redbox ioi Mall
Date : 6th Nov 2009
Occasion : Mie's Bday

Irene and Mie

Mie and me!

There you go, drunkards! Oops, ladies!

Rene rene, lady in purple *me*

mie and deb- sober

Cupcakes from Wondermilk

pretty little thing, aren't they?!

A very delighted mie

All in one! Bestie, cakes and presents!

Rene, me, mie and deb!

A very red Deb!

Can't believe that we've all known each other for 10years
already? Been friends since primary school =)
These people are gems in my life although we sometimes
don't get to see each other all the time

So mie, i hoped that u had fun,
and Rene, sorry we didn't managed to plan a big bday for u
and Deb, careful. Don't fall head over heels ya!!

091109

2009-11-09T16:14:00.003+08:00

At so many points in life, it's so easy to just let it go. Just.. get comfy and stay there.
That's why we should all constantly be reminding to strive forward, to move, to fight until you do not have any strand of power in you. That, my friends, are the ultimate goal of living.

I understand, it's always easier this way, calm & smooth and there goes a lifetime. But i wouldn't want to reminisce about my past and nothing jumps out. I like to have some more memorise, heartache, disappointment, joy, grateful.. a mixture of everything. They do not necessary means the best of moment, but is the essence of making ones life complete.

It's just like waves, one tide to come after another. A calm sea, can only be the dead sea. Concentration of salt is so high in it, one day it'll vanished.

I don't want to be caught up in work all the time, to be constantly burying myself so high in work, for i'm a very greedy person, i wanted to have of everything at the buffet, i wanted to juggle a few balls at once. Can i have it? Can i ultimately have it all?

p/s: if this doesn't make sense to you, ignore it. I'm tired. and emo. Especially on a rainy day.

secret..Shh

2009-11-03T10:46:00.003+08:00

i think i found my boyf's secret stash yesterday while trying to allocate my cert.
Well, it's not exactly a secret stash per se, it was just something i did 6 years back.
I remembered that was the 1st few months we gotten together, i was innocent, restricted, and naive back then. I wrote my thoughts for the 1st 100 days we gotten together and give it to him as a birthday gift. I thought it was silly back then, now i know it's such a priceless gift, it was me, strip bare from all the grown-up-polluted mind, just all that overflowing feelings, so exposed to him. I would have been very touched myself if i received a gift like that today though. It brings back so much of memories, it was so dramatic back then. I was just wondering, would us then be proud if they would have known how we're like, today? Or vice versa?

Life have been moving on so fast, too fast that sometimes i wouldn't be able to catch it or slow it down, even if i want to. So many things to think about, so many stuff to settles, so many uncertainties to figure out. I've limited brain capacity here though, but maybe it's a challenge from God to expand my horizon, to do more things with my life. I've been living too comfortably back then, i think. Now it's time for me to pick up the pace and start jogging. I guess.. it's time!

Just to sum it up..

2009-10-22T14:49:00.004+08:00

Sheer vintage blouse.preloved; lacey jumpsuit.pumpkin; joie skirt shorts.uglyduckling; dark coffee sling bag.fashionholicgal.

What have you done in the past 24 hours?

2009-10-06T14:39:00.003+08:00

1400 : bored in the office, staring at the screen blankly
1500 : Still bored, browse more other website/blogs/fashion blogs.
1600 : Yawn, yawn...
1700 : Seven down, one to go.. Browse updates on Tudors, apparently season 4 is the last =(
1800 : On the way home, massive crawl along the federal highway.
1900 : KFC for dinner!! Crap, the stall outsite it sells durian, freaking.smelly!
2000 : Bones returns for another season!! Brennan and Booth are so cute together =)
2100 : Stole a pear back from the office, *nom nom*
2200 : Head out with ZT and Serene for a drink at Starbucks..
2300 : Browse some notes, some reading..
0000 : *Stares at the celling* shouldn't have down that macchiato!
0100 : Paranoia, i think there's a cockroach in my room.. Zzzzz
* 0130 : Woke up did payment to some blogowners!! More new clothes!!!

0800 : Crap, late already!! Jams and more jams!
0900 : No parking, meeting starts in 15minutes..
1000 : Came down to move my car, i parked illegally. Thank God i move, a policeman was writing out saman with a weird look.
1100 : Proof-reading.. i miss my boyf!
1200 : Lunch with colleague. More gossips i said.
1300 : I forgot the designated sentence. Anyway. Gatorade lime makes a happy me!

021009

2009-10-02T14:19:00.004+08:00

This should be a good day, or it ought to be. But suddenly out of nowhere, it just feels kinda blue. Not moody, nor depressed. Just that it dawn on me to have that kinda feeling, it's mild, not overwhelming, i'm not sad. Just blue.

So many things has been happening lately, one of the more significant changes after started working is you lost most of your me-time. I used to spending most of the time myself, doing nothing, staring blank at the wall, let the thoughts run wild, process stuff that has been happening, reflecting on every decisions that I've made. But now, having time to myself is a luxury. 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, most of it is spend working, going classes, travelling, jam, boyf, friends and all. I don't even have the time to think, to think if wht i've done is correct or whether is it justifiable, i need more time, i need to think. I've felt so different lately, I don't process stuff anymore, thinking is a time-consuming task, and also a task that has been on the to-do list for so long(well, psychologically), always a high priority one. It has been flagged, put red-sign on it, yet i still don't have the mind capacity of dealing with it. It's like a floodgate, or a pandora's box, once u open it, there's no way you could have fit it back in into the tiny little box at the corner, it's either you deal with it or you not.

Although study shows that you only use a minimal of 5-10% of the brian capacity that we own but somehow rather i couldn't help but feel helpless, i'm always exhausted. Partly contributed to the part of me not letting go the very little me-time i kept for myself in the night by trying to stay up a little longer, spending more time myself. It's a vicious circle i know, but there's nothing much i could do about it.

I know i'm being childish for trying to hold on to that, but it feels like a part of me, i'm still not done with that, i would hold on for as long as possible to do so. Probably until before i could dealt with the psychological effect of growing up, this is still gonna be a part of me. Do not blame me, it's just who I'm.
Don't tell me to sleep early, i would if i could. I'm sorry.

阴天在不开灯的房间
当所有思绪都一点一点沉淀
爱情究竟是精神鸦片
还是世纪末的无聊消遣
香烟氲成一滩光圈
和他的照片就摆在手边
傻傻两个人笑的多甜

Everything in one!!

2009-09-14T15:56:00.004+08:00

Well, everything in one!! Too lazy to compartmentalize already!! Plus, so little time, so many fun, ain't it?

Major *heart* this, so blardy cute. But i don't think this is available in M'sia though, sad case..

pic credited to Julia

Contemplating to buy these two as well, but I think the flats might be more practical? Or rather, necessary?? Hmmmmm....

both pic credited to MissTLF and OCD

# had a fun night out with both Deb and MiinYee..at 3 two square, it was fun!!
# and MY stayed on for the night, we went for UP!, sucha hilarious movie. Seriously, watch it!! I'm planning to watch it again with the boyf =)
# Class has officially started, the subjects are bulky but super boring. Classes are 10 hours on the weekends alone.. Oh God, help me get through this whole thing!
# Had a movie date with the boyf after class on Sunday( i repeat, class on SUNDAY!) went to watch Gamer instead of UP 3D, big no-no! Gerard Butler might be an eye-candy but no way this movie is interesting or even worth while to watch..
# Met up with the girls at coll in class, after 3 months of hiatus. We catch up straight where we left it, glad that we still laugh as much as we did!! No wonder ppl are a bit scared of us all!! Laughing too loud I guess :P
# Daddy, Jill and Justin coming down this weekend, major woo-hoo!!!! Miss them too much already, why can't today be Friday instead of Monday???
# Old news, I'm still damn 7 broke =(
# Recent buys will be up once the pic are taken.
# When are we meeting up, dear Fion? Miss you already..

Well, that's all for now, and before signing off.. This is my girl crush of the moment..

Diane Kruger

Olivia Palermo

Leighton Meester

Outfit Posts

2009-09-08T14:58:00.004+08:00

Finally done it after contemplating for so long, my 1st outfit posts. Taken in the glorious Boh Tea Plantation up in Cameron Highlands, will have an individual post for that coming up real soon!

Lovin' the pleats and the smocked, pretty?!
Blouse-midnightglam; Jeans-Levis; Duotone Flats-Rockin'Reptile; Bag-Stockist; Bangle-SoakRepub.

080909

2009-09-08T14:48:00.002+08:00

Greetings to everyone!

I'm blogging from my desk at my office, sounds so weird even just to type this out, have been working for 4days already(well,almost!) They're nice people here, doesn't seems to discover any major problem yet. But hey, I'm still a newbie, especially in tech dept. Just completed some of my task for the day, hence a few moments for air!!

Btw, my class will be starting this coming saturday, misses all my coursemate so much! Can't wait to see them in a couple days time!! However, will have to work this weekend..blah =(

But but but, i drove to work today!!! Driving my uncle car that is, but it's such a great step, I DROVE HERE!! Haha, i'll be starting my driving life tomorrow onwards! Exciting, ain't it? Although that means more torn on my wallet..

Oh ya, Jill will be having her exam on today, wishes her the best of luck and will keep her in prayers! Don't fret, my darling sis!! It's gonna be alright!

Gotta chao peeps, till then..

Updates!

2009-08-31T01:42:00.006+08:00

It has been pretty hectic this couple weeks, hence here we go..

Life Updates:
- i got through my final exams, result came out earlier, i did alright!!
- I'm finally a grad! After 4 years of blood, sweat and tears!
- Found a new job too, it's a serious job, i'm starting in 2days time.
- daddy is reconsidering of getting me a new car *yippie*
- Which means, i might be moving too, somewhere nearer and cheaper.
- i think my financial situations might be turning better soon.
- a few friends of mine did not get through, feeling a bit sad for that.
- class is starting in 2 weeks, bit nervous in a class of 400.
- i'm anticipating of starting work, it feels overwhelming..
- met up with friends last week, it was nice seeing them all.
- new stocks for MidnightGlam pretty darn soon, dont hold yr breath!

French chic

2009-08-31T01:36:00.001+08:00

Lol, just reserved this pair of gorgeous heels! Hope no one gets there before me,
pretty ain't it?~!

It's certainly my pleasure

2009-08-18T23:06:00.003+08:00

1.Having cappuccino first thing in the morning
2.Hanging out with the girl pals all day long
3.curling up doing nothing with the boyf
4.raining like cats and dogs when I'm home with the family
5.people watching on the train/sidewalks/busy streets
6.rerun of Grey's, GG, Bones, SATC etc in the middle of the night
7.admiring beautiful.artistic.fashionable blogs
8.a parcel arriving at the door
9.playing dressed up when no one is looking
10.reading a good book
11.watching the sunset from my room

Just another night

2009-08-18T00:45:00.001+08:00

Spend the night partying with boyf and friends at Sanctuary, 'nuff said.

Sometimes I wonder..

2009-08-15T00:21:00.004+08:00

I only have budget for one..Romper or blazer?
1.I love the romper's design but absolutely hate the fabric, I'll be getting it tailor made if finally made up my mind to have it..
2.The blazer seems to be the upandcoming it thing to own. But will I be able to carry it? Looking chic in it?
3.Blazers are much more practical than romper, hands down!
4.Rompers is such a playful piece, love it!
5.Blazers are cheapers, although need to wait for restock and pay for postage..
6.It takes 2-3 weeks for romper to be made.
7.Can choose my desired fabric but worried that the tailored result may not be satisfactory.
8.Pricing for the blazer is a bit low, could the quality maintain?
9.I'm in serious dilemma, which should i choose?

edited:decided to just get the blazer from aishop instead-cheaper alternative and quality seems better too ;P

Oh days

2009-08-14T23:43:00.006+08:00

We're almost half way through August and my holiday is almost over. My class will be starting in 2-3 weeks time, which means result is coming out soon! That seriously freaks me out ok? I've been trying to push the urge down everytime I've a slight thought drifted to the results.. Haih, it's just too saddening to think about it.

Anyway, I'm still low on cash, which means I get to still grumble about the clothes/shoes/bags/shorts that I want but don't get to buy. Haih, temptations..no wonder so many ladies have credit card debts! I totally get it alright?~

The long awaited skinny jeans that I bought from MissOCD finally arrived on Tuesday. Guess what? She sent me the wrong size!!! It looks pretty on me, but yet extremely tight. I was so tempted to keep it but wearing it seriously makes me feel like going into repository arrest..In the end, just return it lo.what to do?!

On the other hand, I'm still watching House damn alot these days. At season 4 already, hopefully can finish season 5 before holiday startss..

Hm..there's still quite a lot to update but I guess I'll just leave it for the weekend alright? Oh.and just a few pretty pictures to share, enjoy =)

pictures credited to lefashion,jakandjil,fashiontoast,stockholmstreetstyle,behindtheseams,stylorectic

Bweks :P

2009-08-14T23:33:00.003+08:00

That *ahemfionahem* keeps telling me I'm damn rich, now I show u why I'm not!
I've absolutely no resistance on clothes...
Aug's recent buys. and Aug is not even half yet =(

There there..

2009-07-31T02:13:00.002+08:00

The darling bf is coming back tomorrow!!! Weeeeeeeeee!!!
Now who says i'm not excited?!pic credited to Le Love
Wee, wee. weeeeeee!!!

Sea of Shoes

2009-07-30T15:28:00.002+08:00

Crap!! So many shoes, so little money

I'm officially annoyed!

Agh..

2009-07-29T23:38:00.001+08:00

Life is boring.
There's nothing much to talk about.
I watched House all day long.
OMG Jesse Spencer (Dr.Chase) is so damn blardy cute!
He's adorable, can i adopt him???

Oh, is there anything else that i can do to fill the time?

Gratitude

2009-07-23T16:08:00.004+08:00

Hello there, I'm back in Taiping. Needless to say, I miss my family, and of course, the internet. I think I've been suffering from internet withdrawal syndrome for the pass 5 days. Anyhow, I didn't get much done when I'm down there cause I'm stuck with a bad sore throat, fever and UTI. It's terrible, and don't get me started on that. It's an epic.

Great gratitude to be given for a few person for making my trip a pleasant one

MiinYee for accompanying me to get stocks despite of the hot weather and layaning me when I got bored.
Joshua for the H&M top he gotten for me from UK, I really like it!! Oh, and driving me to the doctor on Tuesday!
Suneetha dearie for the lunch at KLCC, i missed u dear! It's sucha shame we don't get to spend more time together.
Last but not least, my darling for putting up with me when I'm sick. When I missed our dinner plan, and to take in all the horribly ugly pancake that I made for breakfast =( It'll be better next time, I promise! Oh, and not to forget, the cute outfit that you got for me from F21!!

Major love!!!

*look forward to MidnightGlam update tonight :P*

Yay or nay?!

2009-07-15T12:25:00.003+08:00

Crisp White Tee Rm19.50

Zippy Skinnies Rm49

Customized Vintage Fairy Ring Rm25

(left) oversized white bird tee Rm35

Studded Flats Rm50

Am contemplating whether or not to get those. Yay, or nay?!

On another note, my stomach hurts like shit, time of the month..duh =(

picture credited to : Dr.Pizzicato, Oh-Popsicles!, French Kiss, The Aura and Winkstick

muacks!

2009-07-10T20:43:00.003+08:00

Warning : excessive geli post ahead. If u cannot stand PDA. Close this window now, i repeat, NOW!

Darling,

I know, I'm always late. This should come yesterday but I didn't have the inspiration to write. Thoughts, come in all kinds of form. Mine, comes in various times in bits and pieces.

I may not be a romantic person, but you are the only person that will send me chills to my toes.

It has been such a long journey my dear, we've overcome so many hurdles, get over some many disagreements. I know I'm not exactly the easiest person to deal with, yet you take me without any complains nor hesitation. You were always there, whenever i need you. Or, when i was just being a pest.

They said, the passion for a relationship/person will only last for 3 months. I beg to differ so strongly, see how well it has been working out for us. We may not be the couple that shows the most PDA, nor the people who says "i love you" all the time. In fact, we hardly ever blurt it out. But we know what we felt, we know we're planning for a future together.

Sometimes I find it a bit hard to tell u exactly how i feel, especially when it involves all the mushy mushy stuff, but most of the times, during the moment, words hardly come to mind, or meant anything. It feels..so deep. so strong. so in love. Sometimes I just feel like I'm floating, bet you never know that.

And u complaint that when I was away, I hardly ever thinks about u. I do, I just didn't know how to tell you without sounded too corny. But most of the time I got just so excited to fill u with the stuffs that I've been through that I forgot to tell u how much I missed you when I was away.

I swear, I think of you so much that sometimes my heart aches at the thought of you..yeah, aches. I never know that is actually true, I thought they only exist in movie character's emotion until I experienced it myself.

From when we've gotten together, me myself didn't think that we'll last, let alone for so long. Until now that everyone thinks that we're inseparable. *Hah, i had a dream last night that someone told us we've so much chemistry that we belong together forever!*

Well, I know, I missed u too. It's such a shame we don't get to spend our 6th anniversary together. (yeah, 6th!) But, separation makes the heart goes fonder =)

Love you honey, happy belated 6th anniversary!!

Pissed

2009-07-07T22:20:00.001+08:00

I'm so bloody pissed that there's no way to express it.

I just needed a little bit of care and love,
was it even that remotely hard?

I'm not asking too much, am I?

I thought that should be your job.

Michael J

2009-06-26T22:39:00.003+08:00

Albeit we all see it coming, with the extreme bleaching,
countless plastic surgery, weird behaviour and skin cancer..
It's still terribly sad for me when i found out this morning that
a great legend is gone..

Michael Jackson, king of pop is declared dead
from a cardiac arrest this morning(local time).
Although I've never been a really big fan all this while,
but some kinda sadness which i failed to understand still dawned over me.
I've been listening all day long to his song..

Despite of what it might been, the paedophile thing, remember?
It's undeniable he's truly a legend.
The influence he brought about will always be missed.

And i wondered, how come all great people died young?
Kurt Cobain. John Lennon. Elvis Presley. now Michael J.

You'll always be missed,
R.I.P.

stuck at the moment

2009-06-25T20:20:00.003+08:00

I'm smitten, one of my fav blog =) Check her out, here

The Clothes Horse

fashiongonerogue.com

credited to Flickrista

Shopping Craze

2009-06-25T20:07:00.006+08:00

Purple block dress on sale at freyafrolio.com

Merrier bracelet with key from Soak Republic

(left) Coronation Ring from Soak Republic

Vintage Navy Lace Tunic from Ladies Mall

Customised Bracelet from Stephanie's

another ring from Stephanie's

Transformers : Revenge of the Fallen

2009-06-24T23:43:00.002+08:00

went to see this today!!!
Oh dear, it's really-seriously-extremely good!
And i thought Micheal Bay probably ran out of idea to make
it a come back smashing hit after the 1st marvelous one..
With all the high expectation, i've to say
this movie seriously didn't let me down
it's like a really good one that i've seen in a while.

Last week i went to watch Terminator : Salvation,
and it's disastrous! I yawned and yawned in the cinema,
almost falling asleep k?

While for this, I went to buy the ticket early early
so to avoid the last minute disappointment
that i wouldn't get a good enough seat..*kiasu ma!*
Luckily i did, u know.. the cinema in Taiping
is actually full today??
I've met those people i thought no longer exist :P

Anyways, it's really good,
if u haven't watch it, go- NOW!!

It's extremely interesting..
almost 2 1/2 hours, and there's no pause in between
so if u have a shallow bladder,
go to the loo before the movie to avoid missing any part~

OOOhhhh..almost forgot..
Megan Fox is effing hot~!
There's no words to describe her hotness..
check out the buff body, her pouty lips and
her piercing blue eyes..
Phew~

hearthrob of the moment

2009-06-16T16:46:00.003+08:00

He, plays Charles Brandon in The TudorsNewFace in Dunhill Black London Ad.

Before that.

In his Younger Days,

Now this, check out that mesmerizing blue eyes

He is Henry Cavill, a Brit.
Which means he has the English accent that brings me weak to my knees.
Extremely sexy, seductive and good looking
How does the producer actually turn him down for
Christian Bale, Daniel Craig and Robert Pattinson?

hmmm..Boy toy for the moment.

June, oh June

2009-06-15T22:31:00.003+08:00

In the month of June, I plan to

read up on more historical account on The Tudors
clean the house, throw out old magazine and books
settle bros and sis tuition.
scout around for part time job
finish the ever piling novels on the nightstand
clear off the stocks at MidnightGlam
swim more, hike more, eat more vege and fruits

In a minute, I would love to walk in the rain(if there's any).
In an hour, I would love to have another masque session.
In a day, I would borrow another book from the library.
In a week, I would sent off my old books to the recycle centre and old clothes to charity.
In a month, I would love to go see my darling again, whom I so deeply missed =)

Well. well.. will need to cut my hair, have my facial, collect my bag, do my laundry, run more errands and lose more weight..just the usuals!

Greetings from Japan

2009-06-14T17:34:00.003+08:00

Ohaiyo gozaimas!!

Hi peeps, i'm back from Japan! It's a truly enjoyable trip though.. in a land where everyone is so uber polite and extreme cleanliness is everywhere. Coming back to M'sia after a week is actually a wake up call. I think this happens on the last round too, when I came back suddenly I'm like so polite and different, and people here seems so..normal?!

Anyway, the trip was really good! With all those glorious food, no doubt i've put on more weight, but i've tons of fun too!! Say the Universal Studio and Disneyland. And the food is, phew~ mindblowingly marvelous! No only that it's tasty, it's extremely pretty too, Japanese have a thing for decorating and percision, everything on the table is so delicately done, sometimes it makes u think that u should probably not eat them up at all!

However, i think the major difference for this trip is that I no longer crave to shop on the street either in Osaka nor Tokyo anymore. Stuffs are so expensive there, the only way to get a reasonable pricing is that u divide all the price by 3, then it all seems alright ;P

Besides, the fashion sense of those Japanese girl has changed so much(or perhaps, it was just me!) I used to quite like the Japanese bcos i think they're stylish most of the time, but now that i'm into more of those Caucasian style( think, sleek and chic) Japanese seems to be a bit too much for me! The layer on everything, and thinks that baggy jeans and harem pants looks good on them, while in fact, Asian has a shorter body proportion compared to European which makes it just looks weird and short =( not good, in fact, not good at all!!

Oh, and you ought to look at their faces, they've piled on make-up on their tiny faces all the time, it's just too much, and sometimes painful to look at them.

Anyway, the only thing that annoys me the most(besides terrible fashion sense), is the language itself. Japanese is a very arrogant race, even at the most visited places like Disneyland, all the explaination is done in Japanese, no English or Chinese or whatsoever other languages at all, they're so proud themselves that they do not bother to have it translated in other more international language at all. In addition, Japanese has a funny sound to it, this language when pronounced, sounds very much like Malays, as if everything can be spelt out, plus they speak in a monotonous voice, so..in shorts, they do really really sounds like robot..
It annoyed me during my 1st trip on the 3rd day, on this round, i K.O.ed the 1st day there, it annoys me, seriously seriously annoyed!

hmmm..it feels good to finally let all this out, shall update those pictures soon! *winks*
Taken loads of them ;P

My Beauty Diary

2009-06-02T13:20:00.003+08:00

In the spirit that my puuurrfect skin has gone down the drain
now it's time to safe it before all the make-up has to come in

Look what i've found??
my *new* darling, taiwan facial masque!
It's super cheap, and quite effective..
and i super heart *muah* the packaging and smell
damn luxurious feel-a-like!

Oh, this is for u Fion,
remember u told me that could be pirated masque?
Turn out it's true, but i also found out
how to certify its authentication!
*yeah!* Tell u all about that soon!

Ahh, as for now,
If u'll excuse me,
i'm gonna put on some masque!!

Midnight Craving

2009-06-01T22:23:00.005+08:00

I know, it's not midnight yet, but probably after like 4-5 hours of studying, it sure does feel like it already..

i hardly ever lay my eyes on a vintage looking piece, but this piece seriously brought out my inner-craving.. *totally ignorance of the shopping bans*

What do u peeps think of it? Too much? I'd love it with loads of bangles, with ballerina flats/pumps & wrislet maybe?

How? How??
Feedback darlings

XOXO

Insomnia

2009-05-28T19:00:00.004+08:00

What exactly did u do when u couldn't sleep at night?

1.The boyf recommended counting sheep..

Erm, u mean like this? These are so cute i could squeeze them while counting.. Yea well, maybe not. Mie would be offended.

2. My friend said watch a movie, conveniently called Insomnia.
Excuse the pun, but i think the poster looks a bit freaky to watch in the middle of the night.

3. Or perhaps, cling on to your favourite bolster (aka smelly!)?
Works, but not 100% of the time.

4. I surf, when i couldn't sleep.. and found this.
And damn, that actually get my adrenalin pumping and scream in excitement!!

Anyhow, I eventually fall asleep keeping in tab what I'm buying and Ed Westwick in hope that all would miraculously showed up in my dream! At least they do make an excellent combination, aye?

失眠

2009-05-20T03:33:00.003+08:00

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你知道那里总共有多少首歌吗？

Yesterday

2009-05-14T16:39:00.003+08:00

I've never feel like this before, ever, after exam.

Mostly during exam, if i studied, i should be alright, most of the time anyway. This time, it's like the only time of my college days that i actually feel confident for the paper, it's philosophical, so i guess i should be alright. I literally feel like just turning the clock so that time can pass by a little faster the night before, all the ancient english and philosophy like language etc. It's just too much after u've been reading that for 8 days, straight.

Well, i was kinda happy when i went into the exam hall, i prayed before i open the question paper, feel good about it, then opened. There it is! First few was do-able, then move on, then realised that all those stuffs that our lecturerSSSsss told us we ought not study then, came out.

Right there, staring back at me, i was stocked, stumped, to say the least.

I feel terrible, played, and bad. This is a very crucial paper, if i fail this subject and even i passed with flying colours for all other subject(s), i'd still get a GD, as in i won't be able to practice in M'sia. I've never fail any paper before, and according to the experienced, they don't normally do any cutting of the student on our final year. They eliminate 1/2 of the class on 1st, another 1/2 from the second. So mostly when we're in our 3rd year, the painful part is over. Well, guess it's not like that this year.. I've no idea what've gotten into the brain(s) of our examiners, what hit them to make them come up with this kinda Qs? It's terrible, atrocious.

I freaked, panicked, blank. I completed all my Qs, but though I don't think I did good enough, it's like an underperformer or so. I don't feel like myself after that, I could be quite pursuasive on my usual days, but not yesterday. I cried after I went home, felt terrible. And couldn't sleep..It doesn't even feel like my hands are gonna fall off after 3 hours of continuos writing, it's more like, what am i gonna do now??

I feel beaten and crushed. I've no idea where I would find the motivation to finish 3 more papers, yesterday paper was the 1st, i've 3 more coming up. Well, lucky for me(i guess) that my next paper is only on next friday, and i've a bit of time before that to clear my thoughts and try to move on. I've never felt this way, i looked at the food, and i feel guilty of eating it, it's like..I'm this useless already, I probably don't deserve any goodness in life. Normally i'm quite optimistic(if i were to say so myself) i dunno what have gotten into me, that makes me this pessimistic, i guess the stakes were too high, i wanted it so bad, it felt so near, like i could already touch it with the tip of my tongue, i've been building that for so long, and suddenly, there's a great chance that it might not came true?

Call me kiasu, but this battle, I don't think I can afford to lose.

Mother's Day

2009-05-10T11:49:00.004+08:00

Hi mommy, it has been almost 5 years since u left us..I know u do not want it to be that way, but that's God's will. And we wouldn't have it any other way, another day with us means more pain and suffering for u. And as we all love u so much, we would rather let u go than to keep u for our sake.

It has been painful mommy, every year during mother's day, yr birthday and your memorial date.It has been so painful for me, for all i can do is just being numb, not to think about you, not to allow myself to. For everytime i think about u, tears just rolls down my cheek. I miss u so much mom!

It was just like yesterday that we were talking, laughing away, huggings and smiling at each other. The cheeriness in your voice, your little dimple, your warm touch...

You know how hard it has been for all of us without u being around right? We all tried to move on, to live on our life, but i know a part of us died when u left us. But we'll keep on be strong, and until when we met again in heaven, I'll want to tell you all about my life, and I want you to be proud for us!

How's your life up there, everything nice and good? I hope everything is well. Oh, and you must have reunited with grandma and grandpa already right? They left us 2 -3years after u did, we all misses them terribly too, send our love when u talk to them for us k?

And mummy, if u're reading this, or if u could.. I just want to say,
Mummy, happy mother's day, I love you!

More is LOVE

2009-05-10T11:37:00.005+08:00

Seriously, i just couldn't stop myself, i keep eyeing things,
how come everything is so damn lovely one?!
I've to let my darling take my modem away tonight,
or else i'll seriously fail my exam and broke!!

Exam and broke?! Not a good combination!
Red Cotton Jumpsuit from Twinkle

Chain me Softly from SoakRepublic

Satine v-neck Blouse by MaybeBaby
*sale item*

Seahorse Dress from Trendy Confessions

White Demure Belle Blouse from MaybeBaby
*on sale too T_T*

The J Bracelet from SoakRepublic
unfortunately reserved and not restockable anymore =(
*winks*my birthday's coming up*winks*

As for the carnage, this is it!
Acid Jeans from Trendreport
Cute duo tone Ballerina from DressyDresser
*there, like the one i've in black and white!*

mine and thine

2009-05-09T19:56:00.006+08:00

Sharing is caring, so let's share some dirty laundry,
skeleton in the closet, guilt purchase..
Shall we?
Fairy's Love
Still pending Customization at Steph's

Tri-band pearl bracelet from SoakRepublic
These are so so good, pretty little things!

Angel Wings, also from SoakRepublic
seriously, seriously?!

super pretty/fierce stilettos from KookyThing
*red sole*red sole* ala Louboutin

last but not least,
purple puffy skirt from MidnightGlam!

An old friend

2009-05-09T00:57:00.003+08:00

Was chatting with an old friend through msn just now, let's just named him X here.

I've known X for like 10 years, he was an old friend. I recalled during high school years, he was a good friend, always been there, whenever i needed a friend, someone to talk to, or even a shoulder to cry on. He has been a perfect gentlemen, despite what others would think of him.
I secretly thought that he's going to turn out to be a fine person when we finally grow up.

Unfortunately, peer pressure took over when we're almost finishing high school, long hours spent at the Internet Cafe playing games, neglected school work. Yet I still think that was just a transitional period, that he'll finally come to his senses and come back to the right pathway and move on.

Well, of course things do not turn out the way I thought. He eventually made friends with a bunch of kids with the tendency to gamble, but just amongst friends. And X thought he found he coveted angel. Overtime, he developed a deep adoration with gambling, and started thinking that he'll only been able to make something out of his life only if he took chances. Guess that's the lesson he learnt from gambling.

He then went on to invest most of his family money on a Multi-Level-Marketing Company, abandoned his studies, lost almost if not all of the money, turn to gambling for comfort, work in accommodation industries for a while, then eventually settled with a telecommunication company with his job description involves him to listen to people's complains all day long, did a two-timing thing once, lost his job in economic crisis, jobless and *new* dream..being a professional gambler.

It was just so sad when we finally bump into each other on msn, while we were updating each other's life, all he could talk about is gambling..how to gamble, how much he gambled, where he gambles etc.

I just got somehow annoyed with it, as I disagree with all that he has believed in. I feel like shaking his shoulder and tell him what I think he is going to do is suicidal, is idiotic and unbelievably stupid, but we've grown apart and we're no longer the close friend that I can spill on with anyway that comes to my mind..

It's just all so sad..it used to be such good old time..
Just nostalgic.

Craving..

2009-05-04T16:35:00.005+08:00

I'm in a terribly bad mood, time of the month coming up..

Craving for :
duo tone ballerina flats ala Chanel *done*
stylish romper/jumpsuit *found,no moolah to buy yet*
cream and black peterpan collar blouse
good pair of skinny jeans *found, waiting for it to arrive*
cool looking specs
blackberry/i-phone
macbook air

Btw, do follow me on twitter at
http://twitter.com/jeanlim

Well, supposingly..

2009-05-01T23:55:00.009+08:00

While I'm supposingly to be studying, something much more powerful took me over!!
I dunno was it because the loneliness of spending the holiday alone
or was it due to the trying-not-to-think-about exam stress piling up!
Anyway, i was just drifted so uncontrollably to all
those pwetty pwetty darlings..
source : unknown
loving the combination of white tights and duo tone ballerina

source : chictopia
She looks so dreamy, doesn't she?

Source : the selby
What a vintage 50s picture

She just inspired me, from hair cut to her sense of style

Oh my, this is so good, i can not, not post it!
Both source : Flickrista

Source : The Satorialist

Source : I'm Style-ish

Always be My Baby

2009-04-30T23:22:00.003+08:00

From left(clockwise):
red kitten heels-Vincci; wooden heels-Bazaar;
Glad Wedge, oh-popsicles; Greek Chic-Ablinc;
Grey Boots-PhatCulture;Black Pumps-Vincci;
Monotone Ballerina Flats from Rockin' Reptile.

And that, rounds up what I've been doing the last month!
Think that's all?!
One *new* baby coming in tomorrow!!

*yipee*

Our Home

2009-03-23T20:59:00.003+08:00

I skipped class last Sunday, just to spend my entire days starring out of the window
and day dream about our future apartments.

There must be a place with lotsa greens, water flowing in the background, plenty of sunlight, windows everywhere, lotsa white, spacious, a funky wall, comfy couch, monotone rug, big book shelf and a red chair. Well, an opened closet too..if that's not too much.
Where our home can be called a real home, where we can have an afternoon tea on Sunday, late brunch on saturday and early breakfast on the rest of the days. Where we would love to go home to everyday after work. Where we would be glad to wake up to every morning..

Oh, and i cut my hair too..now i look like a 16year old. I still don't really like it, the hairdresser just do not take instructions well I guess. I'll go for a re-cut soonish..

A change is gonna come

2009-03-16T22:12:00.005+08:00

My current obsessed colour is grey,
I wear lotsa bangles and blacks,
I'm allergic to public wedding proposals,
I hate when people go all lovey-dovey in open,
I like watching CSI and Bones during meals,
I love leather wear,
I listen to punk, rock,
I'm studying law..

it's kinda like i lost my girlish charm,
what if?!

Suddenly i just decided to stop
stop to act like I'm actually a confident person,
stop to think like I'm actually better than you,
stop to be so forward and brave like I normally do,
stop to be so out-spoken,
and being the little girl I'm deep down inside?

All girlish and hopelessly romantic
Will u still love me, for me??

Mockery

2009-03-11T14:54:00.004+08:00

I feel mocked, humiliated, embarassed
I never take u as this guy and me as this girl.
The story in my dream doesn't have this chapter.

We probably shouldn't have done it the 1st round
cause I didn't realise there's actually a
2nd and 3rd round,
perhaps u should have warned me instead
save me from all this misery.

Or u think 3rd time is the charm?

Hm..just, u know. give it a try
Try harder not to deceive me anymore
try not to portray u're this very nice guy when you're not
try not to lie so much(or, omission for that matter)
try not to change who u're in front of me

It's awful to find out that you actually know nothing about
a person who u spent so much time
talking, cuddling with..

Perhaps, try a little harder..
not to?