On the month of..April

*this post is more like for future self ref, ignore me if u've to*
Today is my working day, hence I have to sleep earlier last night, or at least attempted too. While the sleeping bug doesn't visit me untill quite some time later, my tiny little brain starting working like adrenalin. I started giving my future some thoughts, shed some lights on it. What did I want to do? How is it going to be? Can i perhaps, virtualise it now?

On career
It'd be great if I can ace my paperSss and get my ass into a big bad ass firm, work my way up from there. I actually still think divorce/family matters interest me alot. However, grade shows that I'm doing better in the corporate side. Hopefully can make big buck on the way, have a condo worth like half a million. But however do not want to make partner, then i'll have to worry about profit and loss. Continue doing midnight glam, that's my passion. It gives me great pleasure on doing work on that =)
On family
my siblings to grow into somewhat elegant and classy grown-up while doing subject/stuffs/work that they really like. While daddy can always stay half a month in the city and half a month back home. Keep things interesting.
On marriage
I want it to be a garden wedding, lots of green and white. Small and elegant. Invite like 200people to witness the ceremony..in a garden. I wanna wear something long and pretty, but still me. I don't want my make up and hair to be done in a way where I don't see myself anymore. A braid too, if my hair is long enough.
Wedding photos shouldn't be too formal, i hope they get to capture us when we're just talking, laughing..and smiling into each other eyes. I secretly also hoped that i get to do another photoshoot, but only for private viewing*winks*. In black/white, very sensual..in a sultry,sexy but not slutty kind of good. Like to be able to look at it after 20years and still smile at the chemistry..btw.i've to shed lotsa weight before i'm confident enough to do so though :P
yea.i guess that's just all for now. Perhaps when i'm bored again in soon future. then we'll come back and review this, aite?

imissu

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ithinaboutyou.ithinkaboutus.allthetime

secret..Shh

i think i found my boyf's secret stash yesterday while trying to allocate my cert.
Well, it's not exactly a secret stash per se, it was just something i did 6 years back.
I remembered that was the 1st few months we gotten together, i was innocent, restricted, and naive back then. I wrote my thoughts for the 1st 100 days we gotten together and give it to him as a birthday gift. I thought it was silly back then, now i know it's such a priceless gift, it was me, strip bare from all the grown-up-polluted mind, just all that overflowing feelings, so exposed to him. I would have been very touched myself if i received a gift like that today though. It brings back so much of memories, it was so dramatic back then. I was just wondering, would us then be proud if they would have known how we're like, today? Or vice versa?

Life have been moving on so fast, too fast that sometimes i wouldn't be able to catch it or slow it down, even if i want to. So many things to think about, so many stuff to settles, so many uncertainties to figure out. I've limited brain capacity here though, but maybe it's a challenge from God to expand my horizon, to do more things with my life. I've been living too comfortably back then, i think. Now it's time for me to pick up the pace and start jogging. I guess.. it's time!

Just another night

Spend the night partying with boyf and friends at Sanctuary, 'nuff said.

There there..

The darling bf is coming back tomorrow!!! Weeeeeeeeee!!!
Now who says i'm not excited?!pic credited to Le Love
Wee, wee. weeeeeee!!!

muacks!

Warning : excessive geli post ahead. If u cannot stand PDA. Close this window now, i repeat, NOW!


Darling,

I know, I'm always late. This should come yesterday but I didn't have the inspiration to write. Thoughts, come in all kinds of form. Mine, comes in various times in bits and pieces.

I may not be a romantic person, but you are the only person that will send me chills to my toes.

It has been such a long journey my dear, we've overcome so many hurdles, get over some many disagreements. I know I'm not exactly the easiest person to deal with, yet you take me without any complains nor hesitation. You were always there, whenever i need you. Or, when i was just being a pest.

They said, the passion for a relationship/person will only last for 3 months. I beg to differ so strongly, see how well it has been working out for us. We may not be the couple that shows the most PDA, nor the people who says "i love you" all the time. In fact, we hardly ever blurt it out. But we know what we felt, we know we're planning for a future together.

Sometimes I find it a bit hard to tell u exactly how i feel, especially when it involves all the mushy mushy stuff, but most of the times, during the moment, words hardly come to mind, or meant anything. It feels..so deep. so strong. so in love. Sometimes I just feel like I'm floating, bet you never know that.

And u complaint that when I was away, I hardly ever thinks about u. I do, I just didn't know how to tell you without sounded too corny. But most of the time I got just so excited to fill u with the stuffs that I've been through that I forgot to tell u how much I missed you when I was away.

I swear, I think of you so much that sometimes my heart aches at the thought of you..yeah, aches. I never know that is actually true, I thought they only exist in movie character's emotion until I experienced it myself.

From when we've gotten together, me myself didn't think that we'll last, let alone for so long. Until now that everyone thinks that we're inseparable. *Hah, i had a dream last night that someone told us we've so much chemistry that we belong together forever!*

Well, I know, I missed u too. It's such a shame we don't get to spend our 6th anniversary together. (yeah, 6th!) But, separation makes the heart goes fonder =)

Love you honey, happy belated 6th anniversary!!