做人要含蓄点，得过且过，不必斤斤计较，水清无鱼，人清无徒，谁又不跟谁一辈子，一些事放在心中算了

24hour/day is just not enough to begin with. Without me even realising it, 2 months already flew by. Working life, I guess suites me quite well. At least, I'm not haggered, or drowning. I'm one of the few lucky ones, who happens to love her job.

Lets just start the updates from beginning, Joshua got a job in MAA in Oct, introduced me to it. I went for the interview, thinking whole-heartedly that I wouldn't get the job merely cause the interviewers were giving me a really hard time during the meeting. 4 interviewers vs Me. I wasn't shaking, merely froze. Luckily, I managed to maintain my "poise" and continue smiling. Needless to say, they called me back a week later to offer me the job. To date, I'm sitting behind Joshua in the office, became colleague with Sabrina. And have a boss who treats me like a toddler, that said. Needed to be baby-sit around the clock.

Speaking of the job, I work in Claims Department. To be more precise, Third Party Bodily Injury, Direct Settlement Unit. I liaise with third party solicitor(those representing clients who was injured in a motor vehicle accident, caused by our insured) to negotiate for a settlement, and dispose of the claim. It was a challenging job, many balls to juggle at once. And, lots to learn too.

I went for outstation trip on my second week of work, to Sungai Petani. Knowing nothing, merely following to observe =) It was exhausting, but rewarding. I also went to Malacca last week, came back sick. See, told u it was exhausting and demanding. But, with a job like this..time flies.

I've also scouted out a place to stay now, not a Subang resident anymore. I missed that place though, I guess it really hits home when you've called somewhere home for 5 years. However, I also quite like my place now. It's a new place, new kinda lifestyle. However, I'm still looking out for suitable furniture to place in my new "home". Myvi also got a parking place here, so I can cross off one less thing to worry from my list.

Thinking of getting a new laptop, but I needed to talk to Justin 1st to get his opinion. I liked the pretty ones from Vaio, but the boyf don't quite see the same. But my lappy is getting old, and laggy already. Of course, harddisk problem has been a problem even since time immemorial.. I also worry that this might crashed anytime soon because being a lappy. I'm already damn proud cause it lasted 6 years without any problem =)

With all this happening, new place, new job, new lappy..also thinking of getting a new phone.. makes me think that I'm really a grown up now and will have to take full responsibility of what I've done and not being so dependent. People around will probably slowly making less and less allowances for my screw ups anymore. Good sign i guess!

More soon, after I came back from Haerbin, China next year!
Till then, Merry Christmas and God bless!

jean
-to freeze off soon-

Inspiration Pic - Dec 2010

Waltz

is love overrated?

在　哪裡記載　第一個桃花賊　
誰在　哪裡典賣　第一支紫玉釵
我在　這裡見怪更怪　
見過電影裡面人家的海　更想去看海
唱過人家的愛　更想找愛

你哭起來 我笑起來　都為了　愛愛愛
有一天翻開辭海找不到愛　
花不開　樹不擺　還是更暢快
愛　還是會期待　
還是覺得孤單太失敗　
我愛故我在

找到愛　幸福的人　肯不肯躲起來　
正在　寂寞的人　能不能站起來
我在　這裡陪你無奈　
讀過小說裡面人家等待　更習慣等待
唱過人家的愛　更想找愛

你喊出來　我靜下來　都為了　愛愛愛
有一天翻開辭海找不到愛　
花不開　樹不擺　還是更暢快
愛　還是會期待　
還是覺得孤單太失敗　
我愛故我在

揮不出滿天滿地的塵埃　
買不起滿街口袋的品牌
你悶起來　我傻起來　可以愛
會不會整個時代只有一個告白　
誰不愛過不存在

不明不白　不分好歹　都為了　愛愛愛
有一天翻開辭海找不到愛　
花不開　樹不擺　還是更暢快
愛　還是會期待　
還是覺得孤單太失敗　
我愛故我在

I'm just saying

love
is where you wrap up your head, heart and other organs
in a package, tie it with a ribbon and
hand it to someone for safekeeping.

Sometimes,
when you're really unfortunate.
The package got return to sender and
you feel like everything is messed up
going back to the wrong places,
for the wrong reasons.

It's ironic
When you get it back, somehow it hurts
way more than when you're giving it away.

Dear Life

I'm starting to think I don't have a life, after countless attempts of people trying to probe at me asking what I'm doing here, what am I doing now. I think I'm officially out of answer for them. I don't even masked any attempts of answering those questions politely, I just agree with whatever they're saying or suggesting and then they'll quietly go away and gossip something up. Small town life, that's it.

Last week was a fulfilling week though, my best gal pal and boyf was in town. Needless to say, I'm a happy girl! I also went up to Penang for a short vacation as well, who knows lying on the sun chair on a breezy afternoon watching clouds can be so therapeutic =)

Anyhow, I'm still waiting for some replies for the interviews I went couple weeks ago, my dad seems to be pretty confident that the job is mine for the taking. As for myself, couldn't say so. And if God bless that this job is mine, then I'll have a lot on my plate to settle before it starts. Finding a place, moving, settling everything here. I've a to-do list so long cause I've been putting everything to be done to this week cause last week was my happy week and there's so many people in town. I don't wanna risk running around in town and bumping into another human being which I'm not keen to see.

The other friend of mine was in town as well for a brief moment, we met up and had a short chat over coffee. She couldn't stop probing and showing off her life. Sometimes I got a bit bored during the conversation I just switch off my mind. Well, just sometimes. Not about to start another meaningless argument with her over something worthless. This relationship with this particular friend was defined as 落水狗朋友, meaning a friend that'd only turn to you when she's at the lowest point of her life. Not such a glorify term, ain't it? However, we're just trying to be there for her, I guess. By my definition, her life is pretty much screwed up. And as that term wasn't bad enough, apparently me and her were having a relationship called the Porcupine effect. LMAO.

Ok, done with all the ranting. I guess I'll just go back to my novel. Pleasantly blissful life :P
Eat, shit, sleep, online, movie, novel et cetera. And the circle repeats itself.

August 2010

First time ever buying color con online.
Green one, 16mm, way too big for my eyes

Dots high waisted shorts from Girlabouttown

Pastel scallop top from Kiss&Tell

Handmade bookmark from allkinds of everything RM18

Shrek Forever After OPI Mini set.

Mulberry Alexa - Inspired =(

I'm in love with this bag, but dunno whether I should get them or not.

Obviously I'd love to have the real thing, but it's £695
So yea, guess I'll have to settle for the inspired thing.

Yay or nay?
Grey, white or the brown?

140810

Just came back from Kampar yesterday, i swear i'm never gonna take the train again.
It's bumpy, packed, and full of rude people. Never will I thought going around with friends for a day trip is gonna be so tiring. Perhaps we ate too much, laugh too much, talk too much!
Well, that's basically what you'll get when you put 4 very talkative law graduates together. There's practically no pause in between conversation, once a new topic pops up, there'll hardly be any need to start a conversation cause we're on a roll.

Thanks again to Ashley and her mom for this wonderful hospitality. Her mom is seriously so friendly and cute! =)

I'm so tired now i think i'm gonna nap somemore.

Backdated Japan Trip!

In our Yukata, for dinner at some hotel near Mt.Fuji
Can also see the Mt.Fuji from the backyard of the hotel, so magnificent

wandering the streets of Ginza. And having doroyaki at the original shop in Doraemon!
Long walk and long queue there :P

Camwhore on the way back to Tokyo in the bullet train.

Taking picture with some random penguin character.
So cute la that fella, anyway i got terrible sunburn from Universal Studio Kansai.
The maxi dress I wore was comfy but it also gave me a V shape sunburn =(

Family pic at Mt.Fuji =)

Summer Pleasure

Every year during my 3 months summer break I indulge myself with more series

First come Bones, then House.
This year, I'm infatuated with The Vampire Diaries.

Despite their consistent positive reviews,
I'm still a firm believer that this is going to be yet another Twilight-que chick flick.
Little did I know I'll be so crazy over it. It's seriously good!
Double-seriously!!

I finished the entire season of 22 episodes within 2 days, stayed up until 4 in the morning just to finish it. And have been deleting it along the way just to free up some space for my lappie.

Now, I'm downloading back every episode of it just so I can keep them for repeat watching ;p
The actor/actresses are all super hot o_O
Especially the character played by Ian Somerhalder aka Damon Salvatore in the series. Another Chuck Bass like layered character, with the undeniable bad-boy charm *blush*

I used to think Vampire is so overrated. With moonlight, true blood..I don't think there's gonna be another Vampire series that I'll follow religiously, that was..before The Vampire Diaries =) *there must be a reason why tvfanatic gave them a A+ rating*

Well, nuff said. Let's share some pictures now

Exquisite

easy breezy angelic

cupcake and cashmere. flowy blue frock
can can bowler hat

minkpink.vintage.dots

wind in the hair.slender.sunset

emmy rossum with exquisite feature

vintage dress

mint vintage telephone

tiny rose buds

Aftermath

Exam is over. Rest assured, I'm not dead, nor in pieces. I just merely, quit! Never would in a million years that I pegged myself as a quitter. However, in this exceptional circumstance, I think I just pull the plug cause I couldn't take it anymore. It's just too much to handle.

The exam stress for this time around built up pretty early. Prolly around a little more than a month before exam even begin. I think I'm secretly freaking out cause I've been working full-time until March and didn't stop completely until May. Plus there's this complication with the transcript and the application. In fact, my application wasn't certain until 3 weeks before exam. All that certainly has a role to play in inducing all that craziness.

I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep. I tried my best not to let it affect my life, trying not to let it get the best of me. Trying to show everyone I love that I could do it, they shouldn't worry. However, what I did was keeping everything inside of me, trying to compress it so it doesn't explode. I was holding everything in so much so that I just merely numb. Numb at the exam pressure, numb when I was studying, numb when clock is ticking so slowly yet so scary. Now I know, I was in a condition that was referred as limbo. It was even like this on the exam morning, I knew I should be freaking terribly yet I just felt numb. I kept mumbling that I was scared beyond my head but in fact it was so numb I couldn't feel anything.

Finally I knew something was terribly wrong when I went home, couldn't keep any food down but slept for 5 hours. Woke up to a glorious dinner yet has no appetite. The supposedly easy next paper looks like French to me. Nothing make sense, nothing freaking stick! I was so scared, I shivered in my sleep. That was then I knew this is too much, way beyond that I could take it anymore. I just Quit! Make my decision then and there. It was always in there somewhere but I couldn't just quit even before I try.. but now I did, it's just, I was caught off-guard, I wasn't well prepared enough.

I'm now back in my hometown, still shopping like crazy. Have no idea what to do with my life yet, but I'm in no rush to find out what I want to do yet. I've been planning all my life so meticulously what to do, when to do. Now I just want to enjoy the time when no pressure is on my shoulder and yet millions of opportunities just opens up. I want to take my own sweet time doing things I like, while figuring out what I'd like to do =)

So, yea..I'm back!

Pastel is so Spring!

I've 72 hours to my 1st paper and this is what i'm doing. The excessive hormone and stress is making me crazy. Let hope they do not reflect on my forehead or tummy instead.

Well..damage on the wallet maybe?

Up & Away China Glaze Collection

Orly Sweet CollectionOrly Lemonade *pic credited to VampyVarnish Essie Mint Candy Apple pic credited to nailgalore

Orly Lollipop

Orly Gumdrop

China Glaza re-freshmint *out of stock* =(

China Glaze Peachy Keen

China Glaza Light as Air

tell me, how do you not feel intrigued?
I want them on my nails, ASAP!

p/s: ok, not asap, after exam la!
they can be my guilty pleasure after exam